they change your life. forever.

God is so amazing that he has given me the honor of having molly as my daughter. Its hard to imagine that HE loves her more than me because my love for her is deeper than any ocean. I pray and hope with all my heart that she will know the Lord personally and that she will be filled with His compassion for others in need.

i had no idea how much this girl would change my life. no idea.

Pros vs. Cons

I have been doing some thinking. I would like to share my thoughts here.

Before I started this little blog I was always online reading up on my friends blogs. I loved hearing about their adventures or seeing pictures of them in their own little life's going about every day. It was a great way for me to feel connected to those that were far away. I kind of made it my morning routine. I would wake up get a cup of coffee and sit down for some reading. Then one day I stumbled upon a blog of someone that I had never met and I started reading. I stumbled upon another blog and another blog. I found blogs about redecorating, cooking and repuropsing old things. I was in blog "heaven." I would use so much of my time looking into other people's lives and adventures and I enjoyed it.

Since then I have zeroed in on a few blogs that I regularly look at. I enjoy reading about particular things like home improvement or a friends life as a newly wed. I enjoy getting ideas on how to use things around my house for multi use instead of just throwing it away or how to cook a healthy meal for the husband and me. But I also have really allowed other's lives to make mine feel small. To make me feel like I am not pretty enough, or creative enough or happy enough. Does that ever happen to you? Comparing myself to others has always been a weakness of mine. I can be perfectly happy with my weekend plans and then I read that someone is going on a fabulous picnic with their sweetie and then taking a tour of historic wherever and then making homemade blueberry pies and I feel like my weekend plans of "staying home in PJ's and playing with Molly" is all of a sudden lazy and boring.  I hate that.

I think that for the next month I am going to read my friends blogs that encourage me like this one And I will also read this friends and of course hers. I don't personally know this family or this sweet family of four but I am always encouraged in some way by reading about their life.

I hope that while I take a semi hiatus of blogs that I find myself feeling less than after reading, that God will really do a work in my heart. I love reading about the lives of others and I am inspried to think outside the box when I read them, I just have somehow fallen into the trap of comparasion. It is no way the authors fault of those blogs, it is just how I see myself in comparasion to them.

I am excited about the work I am asking God to do. I know that He loves me so so much and I believe that He doesn't want me to look at someone else's life with longing. He has plans beyond my imagination for my family and I want to be excited about those plans not someone else's.