step one.

sometimes i read stories from the news or i hear stories from a friend, student, co-worker and its breaks me. it is like something inside just breaks. i cannot bear the sadness, the horror, the loss because it is so tragic so "not the way life is supposed to be."

a friend from college is on a journey with her family to adopt two beautiful children from the congo. i know a little about the congo just from reading or watching stories here and there but for the most part i feel like the world as a whole is pretty quiet about the congo. maybe that is just me and the media is loud about the injustice, the sadness the wickedness that the people of the congo endure.

this morning i opened up her blog and what i read broke me. it shattered my heart. it was so hard to bear. but i believe that i have to bear it. i have to know the truth so that i can pray for the country. i can cry out to God and beg him for justice, for protection and for rescuing the lives of the children in the congo. for healing the wicked and helping them turn their faces to Him.

the first step is education. knowledge.opening up your mind.

how can you change something if you don't know anything about it?


so please join me in educating yourself and others by going HERE

and then pray. pray. pray.

f.o.u.r.

four things that i am going to work on this week.

1. sing in the shower

2. clean up my workspace.

3. listen to new music.

4. take breaks.

what about you?

anything new you want to do this week?

Let's eat cake!

Molly MacRae at her first birthday party.

Family, friends, food and fun!

Happy Brithday sweet baby girl!

xoxo mama

8:21pm

what a joyous moment when molly came into the world.

i. could. not. stop the tears.

our lives have been infinitely better because of her little life

and it has been such

an honor and privilege to walk through this first year of life with her.

i pray and hope she knows how much she is loved by her mama and daddy and how amazing and valuable she is to this world!

a year ago today

a year ago today we were preparing for the greatest change to our life as we knew it

baby was on the way

i don't remember exactly what i did for a whole day.

wait a minute, i was on bed rest so yeah i do remember what i did baby's birthday eve.

i remember my mom coming into town and allen taking off a day from work

i remember our house being so quiet and still

i remember packing the infamous hospital bag

i remember what i wore out of the house and into the hospital.

the night of birthday eve our little family went out to eat at a pizzeria downtown

then we made our way over to the hospital and checked in.

crazy that it has already been a year.

i am sad and so very thankful at the same time.

tonight allen and i are going back to the pizzeria downtown to celebrate each other, molly and our life before we entered into parenthood.

can't wait!



Christmas came early....

Christmas came early for me this year....one of my oldest and most dear friends came to visit and celebrate molly's first year of life with us this weekend. It went by so fast but every moment was special and so valuable!